My dear sweet Tiffany,
It has been exactly 4 and a half years today since your spirit left this earth. Five Christmases gone by without you here to celebrate with us. It seems like yesterday that we were all together that Christmas of 2010.
It has been exactly 4 and a half years today since your spirit left this earth. Five Christmases gone by without you here to celebrate with us. It seems like yesterday that we were all together that Christmas of 2010.
I remember so many past holidays with you and your brother when Christmas Eve and Christmas Day were so full of activities that sometime we couldn't fit UT all in. Now all we have are the memories of those long-lost days to sustain us for all the years we have left.
Your passing was a catastrophic event that tore the very fabric of our lives and reverberates in our souls to this very day. Each and every one of us whose lives you passed through on your short journey of live is forever changed in ways you couldn't have imagined.
Those of us who knew you best have been torn asunder, reeling from the pain and sadness, trying to move on with our lives in new and ever-changing ways. We have picked up the pieces but like Humpty Dumpty, we can't be put back together again as we were.
Making new Christmas memories and introducing new traditions had been an up-and-down experience. Maybe someday we'll get it right somehow.
My heart, so full of love for you, misses you so grievously and struggles to carry on. I cherish my grief as I let go of the pain. I understand why you had to go...your light burned so brightly it couldn't be sustained...but I will never accept it. I just can't but I can go on in some capacity, experiencing love and happiness as best I can. It's all I can do...
Words cannot express how much I miss you in every way...from that bright smile that sparkled in your blue eyes and lit up your beautiful face, the softness of your flawless skin and the freckles on your nose.
So in your honor this Christmas season, I have put up your tree...the one that was still standing in your apartment that terrible day. I decorated it with all the ornaments I had saved for you when you got your own place...the ballerinas, the Disney ones I got especially for you, the personalized ones and those for remembrance, and last but not least, the Wizard of Oz ornaments collected so lovingly through the years.
I'll miss you...forever...until we meet again.
Love, Mom
