Your Smile...Your Amazing Smile

I have so many posts started, so many in my head that I don't know where to start.  A wealth of them I have written on your Facebook page, while so many others are in my heart still waiting to be crafted and brought to the light of day.

I can't even begin to count the things that I miss about you, my so brilliantly gifted, incredibly beautiful, broken-hearted daughter, and I couldn't possibly document them all in one sitting.  But I know the one thing that I cannot ever forget about you, other than the sheer essence of you - whether it was pure and genuine, filled with mischief, forced with clenched teeth, silly or simply mysterious - is that spectacular smile of yours.

You had the most amazing smile.  It was like a light shining from inside of you, drawing people to you like moths to a flame.  Sparkling in your eyes, pure joy to see.  Oh, if I could make a wish, it would be to just catch one more glimpse of your smile and make it last for a lifetime...

"That big, bright smile"

Now every time I look at a picture of you, I stare into your beautiful eyes and wish for what was.  Every time I see your gorgeous smile that lit up your whole face, I wish for what could have been.  And then I realize that I'll never see you again in this lifetime so I cry for what is now.

When your brother, Jordan Alexander, died, someone gave me a plate with Footprints in the Sand written on it and I cherish it along with your cross.  So I dedicate this song by Leona Lewis to you and Jordan.